Second Day of Junior Year!

Its my second day, and...im not sure how I feel about it yet. I have a class with Chelsea, my boyfriends ex...thats interesting. especially because she thinks that her and I are friends. I dont have any classes with Tyler, my boyfriend, but I do have lunch with him, which is nice. Yesterday Tyler held my waist the whole lunch period. Almost like he thought i was going to run away or something. It was so cute. :) I secretly love when he does stuff like that. He makes me feel wanted, and needed, and protected. I love him. I pretty much ike all my classes and stuff but im a little worried because almost all my classes will change soon, i think. Because of the internship, they'll have to rearainge everything. :( Grrr. No good. But.....maybe ill get some classes with Tyler when they change them around. That would make me very happy. :) Anyways, Imma go for now. Ill write more tomorrow.

IM HERE!!!

Hello from TEXAS!!!! I got here yesterday and i have already seen most of my family and those i havent seen yet, im seeing today and tomorrow. Everyone is still pretty much the same except for Caden. He is the newest baby. He is six months old now. :) And he is so friggin cute. mmmm I wanna eat him up! I'm enjoying my time here. My friend Alex that i havent seen in three years wants to come see me and my dad sadi it would be cool. So maybe ill see him! YAY! Anyways i have familly coming over so ill write more later. MUAH!!!!

Abortion. (Sorry if this is offinsive)

I AM PRO LIFE!!!!




ARE YOU KIDDING ME< OBAMA?!?!?!

Failing World Geo!!!! WTF!?!?!?!?!

So this morning i was sleeping comfortably in my bed trying to sleep off a head ache when my little sister comes bardging in. At first i was pissed and was yelling and screaming for her to get the f out of my room when she told me my mom had been texting me and i wasn't answering. Annoyed I opened the text to see that i had failed my World Geography class and my mom was flipping out. Well, i thought i had exempted my final and had above an 80 in the class. Come to find out it was all just a big missunderstanding and i had to walk my happy but .7miles up to my school in the hot sun to go take the dang final. It sucked.
But i guess its all cuz now im back home and i dont have to go back up to that hell hole for almost three months!!!! yay!
So i leave for tx on saturday. Im pretty excited about that. Ill try to keep up my blog while i'm there. I'll probably have alot to write about. I do good writing while i'm there. I'm already preparing to go by listening to my country music.  I think im going to do a post for quotes. Music makes me think of quotes. :) Well, bye for now.

My One And Only Follower....

hey there to my one and only follower so far. Chris. :) You and i have been reading each others blogs religiously and that to me is awesome. I wish i had other followers like you. people who just sat and enjoyed the things i write. after all thats why i write in the first place you know? to intertain people. Do i intertain you my friend? I sure hope so. :)

Well...Idk what happened.

I'm sitting in the library at school. This is where i do most of my Blogging. I find it easier to think in here. It's quiet. There is not really anyone around. I can just sit and write and be.
I have realized that i need help. I have realized that i can't do this living thing alone. I can't live my own life by myelf. How sad is that? I'm such a screw up that i can't even liv without messing up royally. I dont know how to get my life back. I mean what do you do when you lose control of everything? Even yourself? I can't seem to get thigs back. Back to how they were. I need myself back. Everyone hates the person i am right now. Even my own mom. Wow, that'll make you feel all warm inside huh? ha. People always think they know me. They think they 'get' what i'm going through. And then when they are going through something they act as though i don't get it. Like i don't feel helpless or anything. Like i enjoy this life. How could i enjoy this? How? I don't think i understand that. I don't know maybe i'm just crazy. Or stupid. Or...I dont know.
I'm about to be leaving for the summer. I'll be gone for a while. Maybe things will be better there. Maybe i wont come back. Do you think i'll come back? should i come back? I dont know. Maybe i shouldn't do anything. Go anywhere. Maybe i should be locked away in a tower. I'm tired of being told how much of a screw up i am. Does she think i don't know? That i don't see my life crumbling away? Maybe she doesn't. Maybe she thinks i'm perfectly happy this way. Little does she know... I'm already dead on the inside.
That happy girl you used to know. The pretty one who had it all. The girl with all the jokes and the pretty hair. The girl who thought she had it all. And had it all figured out. That smart pretty outgoing fun loving crazy happy girl is gone....dead. Lost forever. Never coming back. I don't know where she went. Or why she isn't coming back. All i know is that she used to be me. And now i can't find her.
I put on a pretty face and a fake smile and pretend that all is well. But really it's not. Nothing is ok anymore. I'm dead and i'm taking everyone with me. Misery loves company. right?

I did it...

Yay!!! I figured out how to make my blog not so gay! lol i love the new layout i hope every... no one who actually reads my blog likes it too. :) lol